I am so glad that traveling back in time is an ability that exist only in the movies. Because if I have the ability to go back in time, I would re-write every plot, every script and every circumstance in my life. I would be so concerned with all the minutiae of my life that I would be re-doing things over and over just to ensure the outcome is just how I like it: Perfect! But here I am at 37 years of age, an amalgamation of every good and bad decision I made all throughout these years, and I am still standing: a bit scarred but ok. Honestly, I don’t even know if I would have made any better decisions if I went back in time: Sure, I would have probably not gotten married to the man I divorced 6 years ago nor dated the men I did post divorce. I would have probably chosen a different program at the university back then or I would have shown up at a Fosse audition in Toronto on that one Saturday morning, then moved to New York and perhaps, even got a chance to dance on Broadway. I could’ve made different and perhaps smarter choices, but would the outcome be any better? Who knows...
If you saw the movie “About Time” with Rachel McAdams and Domhall Geeson like I did last Friday night, you know what I’m talking about.
“About Time” is such a delightful movie that goes beyond looking and finding love. It is about this guy, Tim who on his 21st birthday was told by his father that he can travel back to his personal timeline and reverse the past to redefine a future outcome. It is also about holding on, letting go, second chances and most importantly, living everyday like it’s the last day of your life.
Unlike the movie, we cannot control what happens in our everyday lives. However, we can always choose HOW we react to them. We cannot go back to our past and reverse the decisions we made to avoid feeling the pain or the hurt we experience as a consequence of that choice. There are no second chances in moments passed. But there will always be another chance, and another…and another for every new moment for the rest of our lives. We just need to choose wisely: with open minds, stronger hearts and brighter awareness. And we can practice approaching life with these, if we choose to.
It’s okay that I cannot travel back in time. It’ll probably be more complicated if I can. But I do hope to have more moments where I choose to smile, to say thank you, or I’m sorry. I hope to have more days where I choose to give, to forgive, to be compassionate and to love. I hope to make better choices in WHO I bring into my life, because it’s about time.
If you could go back in time, what part of your life would you like to go back to? Would you go back to make changes or would you do it to revisit a moment that you wish can last forever?